Thanksgiving

Well today was Thanksgiving. Josh and I spent it with my family. It was a great time with delicious food. I felt sick I was so full, but that's usually the point isn't it? It was kind of strange to have to "travel" home after a family function. Someone has to venture out of the small town, right?? May as well be me! Anyways, I am soo thankful for so many things, i figured I would take this time to list off some of the things I am thankful for- Just for fun. 

I am thankful for my health, as well as all of my family and those close to me. 

I am thankful that I have such an amazing, supportive and loving family! and funny!

I am thankful for Josh and everything he does for me, he's my rock.

I am thankful for Josh's family, and how unbelievably thoughtful and kind they are to me.

I am thankful to have a job, and be making money.

I am thankful that I enjoy going to my job, and like the people I work with.

I am thankful to have ALL of the things I need, and a good portion of the things I WANT

I am thankful to be surrounded by SO many people that would do anything for me!
I am thankful that I get to feel so loved SO often!

I am thankful that I don't have too many acquaintances, but a good number of REALLY good friends.

I am thankful for the time I get to reflect on what an awesome life I was given

I am thankful for my faith in such a loving God

I am thankful that I was brought up to appreciate what i've been given.

I'm thankful for every tough lesson I've had to learn just to get me to this point. 

Anyways, that was just a short little list of the things i'm predominantly thankful for. I could go on and on and on, but it would probably get a little boring after awhile! :) Until next time...

Been awhile

So it's been a few days since my last post, So I  figured I would get a few things out there before I have to start getting ready for the day! Blehhhhh. I've been workin A LOT lately! Which is a pain, but I know once I get paid I'll be glad I did it. Especially with Christmas creeping in! How the heck does Christmas come around so fast every year! Anyways, everything is starting to get into a routine and I do LOVE it down here!!  I am really really happy! I really like the people I work with, I laugh a lot-which is SO good! I love being able to come home to my sweet boy every night!! Everything is just coming together. Life is good! Now we just need to get crackin on this whole wedding thing!!! 

Mini shoppin trip!

Set of Earrings

So I had a day off today, So Josh and I went to the Mall of america for a little shopping. Well...mostly just because I had a gift card from Josh's mom and sister for Forever 21. Which was SO nice! But anyways, that's really the only place we went. It's so strange to me to live so close to the mall, and just be able to spend a little amount of time there and not feel so guilty about the "trip" there. haha. So anyways, I've been wanting some new jewelry and forever 21 has some really cute and cheap stuff, so I figured I would just share what I purchased. Everything was 4 dollars and under, score!! I also got a Birdy ring, but it was a bad picture. Oh well!  I think i'm going to start doing more posts like this, if I go shopping at the thrift store or whatever, and share what I find. Just like the other day, I went to Goodwill and got 2 of the big jar Yankee candles brand new for 3.99 a piece. What a steal considering they are 25 bucks at the store! And they are christmas-y scents too, so that will be nice!

Pretty offset cross necklace

Little Peapod necklace!
I thought this was really cute!

These are "Fashy" as Josh would say

Pretty wing earrings

These are also Fashy, and trendy.
Pretty!

Home

Well i'm all moved in! Now I just need to unpack everything and start setting up and organizing, which is a pain! I think i'm come to the conclusion that moving in general is my least favorite thing to do in the whole world, ever. UGHHH i hate it. But, the end product is worth it. And i'm starting to like my job more, so that's good. I think if i didn't like the people there, i would HATE the job. But they are all very nice and funny, so I think that's what makes me feel more tolerable to the stupid job. But I also get tips at the end of the day, and that's nice-i've been averaging about 20 bucks a day to walk out with. So it's nice to just have some cash everyday on top of what i'm getting paid. But anyways, to explain my little picture, on Saturday i had to work 8-4, and Josh and his dad went to town cleaning out my room and getting everything set up so it was ready to move my stuff in. So when I came home, i had flowers sitting on my dresser with this little note. He's too sweet to me. Today we are going to get my....*you ready for this*.....queen size select comfort bed!! AHHH!! :) I'm sooo excited and so happy. My brother Nathan and his wife Heather are giving it to me! How awesome is that??? All in all, everything is going very well. I feel comfortable and at home, and everything will just get easier as the time goes on! 

Soul searching in process

Well then, today was a less than desirable day. I am exhausted. Lots of tears, and lots and lots of reflecting. I guess to start off, It was my last day with Mara. It was really hard for me. She's been a staple in my life for 2.5 years. And now it's just over. I mean, it's not like i'm never going to see her again, but our routine is over. It's time to move on, and that is incredibly incredibly hard for me to grasp. And then on another note, I started my job the other night. I guess, just to start off-it wasn't really what i was expecting it to be. (not that i really knew what to expect) I guess the title "Receptionist" is kind of stretching it. Sure, i'm answering the phones, and telling customers to sign the clipboard. But i'm mostly just walking around picking up after everyone. Their garbage and laundry. So i guess i'm a little disappointed. And disappointment breeds overwhelming discouragement in me. I mean, i know i should be sooo grateful to even have a job...So i feel bad that i'm so negative on it. But i just find myself feeling like for what i'm being paid, i could find something else that i would enjoy doing more, and maybe even get paid more. I just hate being a quitter. I know the world is not going to stop spinning if i decide it's not the job for me, and their business is not going to fail without me. I just feel stupid, I want people to be proud of me, not look at me and wonder what is wrong with me. I just feel so awful and extra down on myself because i'm dragging Josh through it all, and i'm being really dramatic and overly emotional about everything. And he really is so amazing, I absolutely could not ask for a better support system in him. He really does everything he can to make me feel at ease and just OKAY, and I love and appreciate him more than I could ever tell him. I really don't mean to be so difficult. I just get overwhelmed really easily. I just wish I could have been fully moved and settled in before i started adding a job into the mix. I think that's what's eating at me the most. I'm not even going to be able to move my own things because I have to work. And i'm stressed out about it. I know everything will be okay, I know that God is with me through it all. I just need to let go and have some self confidence for crying out loud!! I AM GOING TO BE FINE. This is an absolutely wonderful step in my life. I am making leaps and bounds. And i'm going to be with the love of my life! I just need to talk myself down sometimes, say a little prayer and just BREATHE. And it doesn't always help to have someone there when you're in "one of those moods", cause I don't know about everyone else, but when i'm crying, or feel like i'm about to cry..talking about why i'm upset is the last thing i want to do. Because It only causes the tears to flow X10. Or like when you're about to cry and someone asks you what's wrong and it's just like a trigger to start crying. Kind of funny, but extremely frustrating at the same time. Cause there's really not a thing you can do to prevent it. Bite your lip all you want, it ain't stoppin the quivering chin!! hahah. I know in no time, i'm going to look back on this and wonder why on earth I allowed such silly things to get me so worked up. But it's all part of the process! I'm just learning! This is all new to me...and it's scary! I just hope and pray that things will get easier, that God will ease my mind and take away all the doubts and fears and just allow me to be as confident as I KNOW I can be!